Welcome to the world Ruby Mae

It has been a while since my last blog but i've been quite busy, including giving birth!

Ruby Mae arrived (in quite a hurry) on the 2nd may at 2.38pm and weighed a healthy 8lb 3oz. After a trip to the midwife in the morning she informed me that my cervix was open around 5cm and as soon as i started having regular contractions i need to get to the hospital quickly as i would dialate to 5cm straight away. She did a membrane sweep and sent me on my merry way. Within 2hrs i started having pains which immediately came 4 minutes apart and very quickly progressed to 1 minute apart. It was a mad dash to the hospital, being held up at traffic lights, road works etc along the way. I was convinced i was going to give birth at the side of the road.

Yet again i didnt get my water birth as the head was crowning and i was ready to push by the time i got to the labour room. But i have to say the experience was so much better this time. I used gas and air and the whole thing was more relaxed and the midwives pretty much left me alone to do what came naturally. It hurt a lot less this time too, even with a baby nearly 3 pound heavier than my first. Five hours after the birth i was able to go home and celebrate with a curry.

The past 11 days have been very demanding, i breast fed for the first 5 days but Ruby is a very hungry baby with an extremely strong sucking reflex and i was in a lot of pain and i felt my other little girl wasnt getting enough attention so i swapped her to a bottle. It was a difficult decision and one which made me feel like i had failed causing a few tears, mine and ruby's. I have to say i'm finding second time around a lot harder she is not a very contented baby and cries a lot but i have to keep reminding myself it is early days and hopefully things will settle down soon. I'm feeling quite emotional too which isnt helping the situation i'm hoping its just the hormones and the tears will settle down soon too.

take care x